why you think they call me pussy
i forced my boyfriend to work two jobs to support the both of us
because i’m too pussy to be a woman and support myself
but my pussy validates me enough and that’s why
i’ve spent the past three years sitting on my ass
hoping it gets fatter so it jiggles when i take
back shots from men who will pay my rent
when it’s due but now that i’m in a committed
relationship all that must come to an end
i evict the semen from my womb with a plan b
and my landlord kicks me out her fucking house
i read in bed with the lights off
then rise at midnight for a snack–
a frozen pizza burnt on the edges
but raw and soggy in the middle
sort of like familiar things.
people tell me i’m not living right
as if my life is theirs to judge.
what if i told you
i don’t enjoy breathing
a fucking twentieth of what i used to?
mundane activities make the day
performing tasks such as laundry
and blow jobs
why did more grown men
find me desirable when i was underage
than they do now?
i ponder this while i wait at the bus stop,
praying for a short but prosperous life.
Susana Rodriguez is a writer from Chino, California. She is currently unemployed and depressed.
image: MM Kaufman