I’m finding it hard to say no
& anyway, what’s fifty dollars
to a London girl?
One email tells me I’d look good in lilac
so, of course, I buy the jumper.
The next suggests
my boyfriend will love me more
in headphones & I think
now hang on a minute, & it says
let’s not take any risks, so I buy them.
Then the emails start getting specific:
Are you sick
of the squeaky bedframe
you spent four hours putting together?
then another, wouldn’t you like to be loved
on a crowded train?
& a gentle suggestion,
how can you suffer
in a black sequin dress – maybe then
I’ll be better, hold the mundane
in my palm like a Food Network host
laughing at salad, maybe
in the world of this jumper I am the same but
different, electric, so I buy everything
give them my money & feel good
because I have something to offer
& they have so much to give me.
Yanita Georgieva is a Bulgarian journalist raised in Lebanon. She lives in London, where she is pursuing an MA in Poetry at Royal Holloway University. You can find her work in Hobart, Alien Magazine, HAD, and elsewhere.
image: Jade Hawk